Malamine here and malamine there...

Stupid melamine is found in milk, meat and eggs...so what is next. It has become a terror on what you are eating everyday. Always thinking if the food I am consuming contains melamine and if you are too safe...there seems to be very limited choice left for food. Well, you might think that as long as those food is not coming from china, they should be safe huh? No...look at the plastic container that dapao your food or the plastic utensils that we have been using and the technology of mircowaves and wireless gadgets...all these are killing our cells and increasing our death rate by the days. We can accept the high tech gadgets but not the melamine and both are killing us one way or another. Maybe it is not the fear of malamine but the fear of dying.

Been thinking alot recently about death...something that people always want to avoid. Why are we so afraid of death...izzit becos it is the end of everything? Why are we so afraid? As a chinese, there are many folk tales about death and where do you go or what will happen to you but they are just stories. Can anyone tell us or show us what happen after death?

Yes...the Bible actually did in the Chapter of Acts as well as the Four Gospal Book. After Jesus died and risen from the dead, he has appeared in front of 500 people at his time to prove that He has risen from the dead. So my next question is what is next? So can a person risen from the dead still get to enjoy food? Guess this is the only question that came across my chicken mind as I love my food and surprise surprise...the Bible again did reveal that Jesus was able to eat fish after he has risen from the dead...and the fish is not floating in mid-air after he swallow...LOL

Hmmm...so there is nothing to fear about death at all if you see from another point of view. In fact it is the pain of illness that is more terrible than death itself.
We have to reap what we sowed and we get sick on what we eat or over eat. This is the choice we have make so can't really blame others. Although many of you do not agree with me but our human race is slowly killing ourselves by tempting with the food due to greed or killing our cells with the technology we use.

Since Death is no longer an issue and we all have to die sooner or later, so I will feel less guilt when I order for my next steak...okie, as long as I am not over eating. If I did get ill, it is the choice I have make between choosing the steak or the steam fish so that is the price I have to pay.

Bad habit

Recently one of my close friend told me that I have a habit of signing which I have never notice before. She was puzzled as well as I was known for my cheerfulness therefore she has decided to catch me whenever I signed. After a week of monitoring by her....this was the conclusion, I will signed whenever I read about some terrible news in the web (My office table was next to hers) or when I called some companies which gave some bad services.

Guess I am doing it subconsciously and I was quite stunned too when I was caught in the action and once 5 times in a day. Think I better kick this bad habit before she has decided to fine me...

What is our Goal in life?

What is your Goal in your life? Most people will answer, Love, Money and Power. But are we truly happy when we have all these? Warren Buffett who was ranked by Forbes as the richest man in the world has all the 3 but was he truly happy? Well....only the man himself can tell you if he is happy but through his biography, he is a man that is uncomfortable with illness and death. No humans are spare from illness and death even the rich and if you read more about him, he is not very lucky with love either depending how you see it cos he has quite a handful of women in his life.

Will you say that he is the life you would have like to live with no regrets but why is he making amends now? After the death of his wife in year 2004, he came to understand that people matters and trying to make amends now to those that are still living.

This really makes me wonder...is Love, Money and Power really matters? I think they still do but this should not be the main motive or motivation of our lives. Found this article while doing some news reading, how many times did we hope that we can strike lottery but what if it ended like this?

Being killed after winning? Guess it was not so good after all. I will rather be a simple person and have just enough to get by but truly happy everyday.

Q & A

Maybe most of my close friends are aware that I am now staying with my aunts but it was not an easy decision for me….once and for all…I am writing this down in the blog to clarify a few things

Did I move out willingly?

Yes and I was not kicked out of my house by my parents as some of you believe as I am a spinster and have to stay with my aunts and grandaunt since they are all spinsters. I moved out due to lack of room in my parent’s flat so that my 18 year old sister can share room with my other sister. I thought it will be better for everyone since my previous job requires lots of traveling and I was seldom at home due to that reason.

Did I regret moving out?

Yes and No.

Yes because I had quit that job and now was holding a job that does not require travel thus I am not able to move back to my parent’s place. What is done cannot be undone and I have to fork out more $$ each month to contribute to water and electricity bills at my aunt’s place….lucky thing is I do not need to pay rent.

No because I get to learn and adapt to new things all over again and be more appreciative towards my mum. I feel that I can be a better person through this process.

What difficulties did I face?

Rules and more rules…so many new house rules and I have to unlearn my old habits and learn new one. Some example of new house rules:

1) All lights off after 12pm. (I used to sleep at 2am lor)
2) No TV after 11pm. ( No more Japanese Animation and DVD drama chasing)
3) House curfew at 12pm. (No more mid-nights show and late night hangout)
4) Wake up latest by 9am even on weekends. (Alamak…cannot sleep late on sat)
5) No Air-Con in the house. (Was unable to sleep the first week…too pamper le)
6) No loud noise after 9pm as grandaunt is asleep. (Cannot even laugh lor…when watching my fav 10pm drama)

I think the list will just grow longer and longer so I better stop for now…guess it is not easy ….lucky they are my aunts and know me since young….can’t image if they are in-laws or housemate, maybe they will be less tolerant towards me.

Some of you think that this is such a wrong decision but relation between my family is better and I see this as a training ….I hope to become a better person for my family and friends…living my life with no regrets.

Miscommunication

Have you ever played this game "Pass The Message" down to the next person in line and the last person with the correct message wins for the team. Usually people will end up with broken message and create their own message along the way and the result was a total different message from the original message that was passed down.





This is a simple example of miscommunication. I have another sample saved as attached. Sometime such error can causes death and hurt to others... once again this make me wonder the percentage of truth that was said by others and listened by me which was pass on to another?





Even people that went into the same movie will come out with different views of the story, this is due to the way the brain analyzing the message differently but when they are asked on the facts of the story, they were usually the same as these people have watched the same movie.





All of the above is just points that makes me relate to the Bible. I used to treat the Bible like another history book or story book. There are so many interesting stories which we have learnt from young like the Boy with five loaves and two fishes, Daniel in the Lion's Den, David and Goliath and many more which you might able to tell me too even though you are not a Christian.





How real or how much is truth written in the Bible...who wrote it? Could it be gossip or just make to believe stories that was pass down to us like 'Pass the Message"? The more I questioned and the more amazed I get.





Do you know that the New Testament, there are four books that are by Matthew, Mark, Luke and John that records the life of Jesus and His teaching. It is not one but four. If this is just a story and not true witness by them, what were written will not be the same as there are four person with four different views and thoughts. They surely will not be the same but they are. The usage of words are different but the facts is the same, similar to those people that have gone for the same movie. Their feelings might be different but the facts are the same. The verse below was found in 2Peter chapter 1 verse 20 to 21 which has answered my doubt.




2Peter chapter 1 verse 20 to 21:

20 Above all, you must understand that no prophecy of Scripture came about by the prophet's own interpretation of things. 21 For prophecy never had its origin in the human will, but prophets, through human, spoke from God as they were carried along by the Holy Spirit.

High competition

Recession...slow down in economy. Hard to find job? You bet, now you not only need to fight with the foreign expatriate but you have to fight with the Monkeys too.



As a saying goes...Monkey see Monkey do....

It could be Me!!!

I was reading this newspaper article and really empathy for this man (Please refer to article above).

This could happen to me too if I could not handle my anger and in fact this is happening all around us every day. Maybe some are lucky and did not end like him.

One thing lead to another and in that split second, a wrong decision make and a life was taken. I have list out the whole process and the cause as follow:

1) Woke up late, miss appointment to see his son Angry level climbing
2) Quarrel over the phone with ex-wife. Emotion turns from angry to frustration.
3) Most likely received cold shoulder treatment from step daughter when arrived at the flat. Frustration level climbing
4) Heated argument about the beatings of his son and argument turn into physical violent and death was the result.

The waking up late and the feeling of angry is so common. Next is the quarrel, maybe not so often but definitely happened at least a few time in our life time.

Cold shoulder treatment like as though you are transparent. Maybe still alright if the mood is normal but always will spark off to arguments when in a bad mood, especially if you get this treatment from someone close.

Point number 4 is extreme and so far I have only experience twice for a heated argument with some violent like pushing but I could not imagine what will happened if all was added up. Could it happen to me? Am I capable of killing someone in that spit of angry?

The thought jus freeze me. In order not to end up in any of such situation, I should better keep my temper at check.

Is that all? It was but not anymore…at least for me.

I was reading my friend’s blog and the question he asked used to be what I was asking myself before. Finally after much trouble, you have got what you want or complete a challenging task and you just feel so empty. Is that all? Not sure how many of you out there is also asking the same question but I did. Or after you have finish watching a long Korean drama which has a happy ending (most have bad ending mind you). I mean you should feel happy right? Hey….the poor couple finally got married after going through so much difficulty and it is a happy ending but why do I still feel so empty?

I used to feel that way too until recently I think…..maybe just a few months back. It’s just amazing and I can laugh at myself now. Why didn’t I realize it earlier but I guess this is the path of life that has to be discovered by oneself and I really am lost of words to describe it. Maybe this is the reason why I start to blog…to share ideas with you my friends and maybe you too will also understand…maybe in the future.

Kind of confusing right? I am like beating around the bush again but I am just lost in translation for this kind of feeling…it is pure joy that cannot be describe. It’s like the truth is lying in front of you all this time and you never see it and one day you just see it …it’s always there waiting for you to see it.

How should I start or explain it in a much simpler way. It is a choice, the choice is yours and mine to choose to see it or ignore it. But once you have make the choice of seeing it, the greatness is so overwhelming that you could not ignore it anymore.

For me, the choice is accepting Jesus Christ in my life. Okie…I know, many of you will say that I am a Christian since birth so what do I mean right? Yes, I am born and raised in a Christian family but understand the meaning of the Bible and accepting Jesus Christ is totally another different thing. I mean …look around you, do you see people around you that are Christian and yet doing a lot of terrible things that even non believers (those people without or other religions) will not do. Just look in the newspaper and you will find sex cult churches or cheating of money by Father (A Church Father). Terrible crimes and sins by human or those who changed the truth of God into a lie. How can one believe in God or His existence after witnessing all these?

I have my own doubts too although I do believe in God’s existence but it is easier to deny it than acknowledging it for me. Accepting God’s existence means going to church every Sunday during my teens, believing in God means giving up 10 percent of my earnings and much more since I am an adult. It is always easier to run away from all this and refuse to see the truth.

I was so self centered then and living my life the way I like. Everything is about me, myself, my feelings, my wants and I was not happy even after I have my ways and this is always my question…..Is that all?

A Song for you my friends

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart....therefore my friends, open your heart and listen hard, live life today and with no regrets.

This is a song by Leo Koo which I would like to share with you, the lyrics here is in chinese version but the video attached below is in cantonese...sorry I was not able to find the chinese one but it is nice too and the meaning is the same. Enjoy!

爱的太晚

小时候老朋友什么都玩
可是毕业之后上班下班
有叙旧没话题很无奈完成一顿晚饭

很久没和爸爸贴心交谈
却发现他动作沧桑缓慢
满脸皱纹漫长见证我成长内疚也心酸

时间太赶爱的太晚
相见的人待到灯火也阑珊
为了不平凡忙忙忙会让人盲
赢到了风光输去了我的心肝

一去不返怎么样补偿
迟了一秒历史不会再转弯
不管怎么样见见想见的脸庞
我有责任去放肆一场
活着总要找人分享

我为了一口饭忘了健康
没有空看医生太忙太赶
喜欢的电影都没精力看完堆在床畔

为了她不停赚计划美满
趁圣诞送戒指多么浪漫
想不到恋人说好久没见了已找到新欢

时间太赶爱得太晚
最爱的人待到感情也腐烂
为了不平凡忙忙忙会让人盲
赢到了风光输去了我的心肝

一去不返怎么样补偿
迟了一秒历史不会再转弯
不管怎么样见见想见的脸庞
我有责任去放肆一场
不要让下一次变遗憾

拥抱一下像拈花弹一弹多么短
可是比事业还漫长几秒钟够你一生难忘

青春太短每个人在忙
计划人生忘了命运的无常
明天会更好想象未来多圆满

今夜刚有伴就让现在变灿烂
生命苦短人不过是人
遥望理想看不到身边一半
可来日方长把快乐酿成习惯

世界有太多东西流转
别把风景搬上天堂