2010 Japan After Thoughts part 2 - Lost & Found!

"Why are you in despair, my soul? Why are you disturbed within me? Hope in God! For I shall still praise him, the saving help of my countenance, and my God."Psalms 42 verse 11

This trip to Japan is to find the peace that I have lost and be a witness to God's creation...

"My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God?" Psalms 42 verse 2



Just like this picture, God have created for me at this moment. The angle, the weather, the light, nothing can replace it as it is one and only.

I found the greatest joy when taking pictures of God's creation...able to take down that moment that God has given me and share it with others.



"Yahweh will command his loving kindness in the daytime. In the night his song shall be with me: a prayer to the God of my life." Psalms 42 verse 8




May my Faith be like the mustard seed and increasing every day I pray...

"The Kingdom of Heaven is like a grain of mustard seed, which a man took, and sowed in his field; which indeed is smaller than all seeds. But when it is grown, it is greater than the herbs, and becomes a tree, so that the birds of the air come and lodge in its branches." Matthew 13 verse 31 to 32.

This trip is fruitful for both the body and soul for I have seek and found God's Wonder.

2010 Japan After Thoughts part 1

I was so looking forward to this break as I am mentally tired with work and it is a good sabbath break. A time to get heal by God's creation...

Before the trip, I did some planning with the train schedule and places I will visit but with the thought that I should take it slow and put my trust in my God as the journey unfolds.




My first day in Japan was a little gathering with my friends in Japan, have a wonderful and tiring day, doing shopping, catching up @ lunch, get a hair cut, dinner with free flow of shabu pork and a night visit to Roppongi-Hill to see the night view of Tokyo Tower and Museum. It was a wonderful deferred birthday celebration for myself.

Woke up early at 430am for my 2nd day as I begin my journey to Yamagata but I miss my train by 2 mins to Tokyo which departs at 0531am and thus unable to connect to my Shinkansen for Yamagata at 0612am. My first reaction was to take taxi to Tokyo but it was a stupid thought. After calming down, I tell myself again that this is trip to relax and with a quick prayer, I took the next trip to Tokyo station.

@Tokyo, I manage to find the next Shinkansen leaving at 0716am which will bring me to Shinjo at 1054am. Although I could not get to Yamagata but this is the transfer point for my day trip to Furukuchi.



The weather was great at Furukuchi for the river ride but the leaves are still green... I am too early for Autumn.



Dark clouds was moving in when i was about to leave Furukuchi and manage to catch this photo as my train speed off to Yamagata where I will stay for the night.



It was the perfect picture to end the day as I could feel God's presence strongly and always be reminded that although the days seem dark but light will shine through. Nothing can be hidden from Him...help will come no matter how bad it may seems....

AMAZING GRACE how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me;
I once was lost, but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear,
The hour i first believed!

Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
'Tis grace that brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me,
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures.

Learning to let go...

It's been a terrible week for me...internal struggle everyday which i hardly care last time. I thought I am strong and able to forgive and forget...

Well, not so sure if I have the rights to forgive and forget cos it did not really happened to me...but I am struggling with this everyday. Maybe it is kind of stupid of me to let this trouble me but my holy spirit tells me that I have to learn to let go. I cannot be His child if I cannot even bring myself to forgive and forget the deed that was done to my dad.

I have been praying and thinking about this issue and asking for forgivness cos I do not know how to forgive...a simple thing that I thought I could.

Here I am again sitting down, feeling troubled and pondering as I listen to my fav mp3...and getting all teary.

I see a pathetic soul which is nothing if God do not loves me, I am nothing, worthless but He loves me so...why I cannot let go of angry and grief which even my dad do not bears... and I pray that God will understand that I will learn to let go, if I cannot do it today, I will do it slowly... to be worthy of His blessings and His love...cos I don't know how I lived till now if without His love.

Black Terrorists among the so called peaceful protesters

Why are they covering their face? These are the real terrorists that are working behind the innoncet looking 'Reds'.

No guns in here!

No guns in here!

As a saying goes...the smart one will pay money while the dumb will take action. There are many protesters at the Red rally that came with family and they have so much to loss. Maybe they are simple minded thus they thought that by being there, the current goverment will dissolved.

Wat they did not see is the political power struggle behind. Although I am no fans of the current goverment but yet I also do not support Thaksin. Although it was wrongful before when they topple his goverment few years back but what he is doing now does not prove that he is a good goverment either. He is just paying money to support this on-going riot and other than money, he did not suffer the stress the people are facing. He is smart by controlling all this behind and let the people that adores him to suffer and die for him instead. This is a selfish act which he can put a stop by dismissing the 'Reds' but he did not and instead pushes all the blame on the current goverment. It takes both hand to clap therefore Thaksin and the 'Reds' should also take responsible for the death and if they really care for their country...they should put a stop to it.

Missing everyone @ home...

Jus finish a webcam conversation with my family...did not know that I miss them so...How much my parents hv aged jus two months especially my mum...when did she grow that old? Her eyes has lost the focus and shine...Did I make a wrong choice to pursuit my work?

Work was wonderful despite the terrible situation that Bangkok is in right now but did I give up something more valuable back home?

This is the first time I have doubts about my choice...but I know that God is with me and He will walk with me on this path.

Hope this month will pass faster and I can be home in June to see my family again.

Amen!

New Life, new work @ BKK

Thanks to all my friends and their blessing. It's been 3 weeks since I left home and all is well in new job and enviroment. Although there are many recent 'Red Shirt' happening in Bangkok right now but no direct impact to my daily chores. Just to let everyone who read this blog know that I am safe and still counting my daily blessing.

Sometime I will wake up in the night and think that this is still a dream. It seems unreal that I have so much in life. I knew this is no credit to me but to My creater. He who knew me better than myself....He had heard my prayers and answer them better and given me much more than I have asked for.

May I live His way and lead a life that will glorify His Name.

Ask and it is given...May the blessing of God be with you as He is with me. Amen!