Learning to let go...

It's been a terrible week for me...internal struggle everyday which i hardly care last time. I thought I am strong and able to forgive and forget...

Well, not so sure if I have the rights to forgive and forget cos it did not really happened to me...but I am struggling with this everyday. Maybe it is kind of stupid of me to let this trouble me but my holy spirit tells me that I have to learn to let go. I cannot be His child if I cannot even bring myself to forgive and forget the deed that was done to my dad.

I have been praying and thinking about this issue and asking for forgivness cos I do not know how to forgive...a simple thing that I thought I could.

Here I am again sitting down, feeling troubled and pondering as I listen to my fav mp3...and getting all teary.

I see a pathetic soul which is nothing if God do not loves me, I am nothing, worthless but He loves me so...why I cannot let go of angry and grief which even my dad do not bears... and I pray that God will understand that I will learn to let go, if I cannot do it today, I will do it slowly... to be worthy of His blessings and His love...cos I don't know how I lived till now if without His love.