New year with new purpose

Thomas Aquinas once wrote, "There is within every soul a thirst for happiness and meaning." I was once lost without aim in life and always ask myself...Is that all? Whenever I get something that I wanted badly, I am excited and happy for a moment and I asked myself...is that all? Why can't this happiness last? I wanted to be happy and to find meaning for my life.

I start to read more, to gain more knowledge, look at people that I thought was successful and look glamour. I read about them, their life bibliography. They are human after all. They have grief,they have worries, they have problems too so how much can they teach me?

I have forgotten God's existance although He was with me all the time...and I only go to Him when I have a problem. Being a born christian (Born in a christian family), I have been to Sunday School, raise with bible stories but I always forgot about God when I am doing fine. Only when I have problems, I will go back to Him.

For how many times or how long....I have already lost count that I am doing this until one day...like I have finally woke up from a bad dream and remember Him, my God, my Lord who never leave me or ditch me. He was that Father waiting for his lost son and He is always there waiting for me.

When you seek God and willing to believe in Him, it is amazing to see things you have not seen before and feel like you have never before. The evidence of Jesus Christ is the Son of God is so shockingly true for those who seek after the truth. However, not all and people who are like the old me, simply unwilling to believe even when the truth is put right before us.

I was afraid of changing my way of life, I was self-centred, I was afraid to change. This year 2009, I am turning 33 come October and this is also the age of Christ when he die willingly on the cross for my sin. Nothing in this world is bigger than Christ's when he die on the cross for each and everyone of us. So what is a little changes in my lifestyle compare to His sacrifice.

Since life begin at 33 when Jesus Christ die for my sin, I must begin my life again too at 33. Living by His foot steps, to serve and help those around.

With this I pray for God's strength, wisdom and guidance, Amen!